So I was at Joann's this morning with Tess to pick up a few things. I don't know what it is, but whenever I am in there I get the grouchiest, slowest workers possible. Getting my fabric cut was like pulling teeth. Sorry to bother you, lady, but could I get this fabric cut, please? I mean, I don't want to be a bother, but it is your job and all... sheesh!
So I finally get my fabric cut, only to get up front and realize that I am fifth in line and there's only one cashier! And of course Tess is getting antsy and not wanting to behave, but somehow we make it to the front and deal with the (ironically) over-the-top-friendly-taking-way-longer-than-necessary cashier and pay for our things.
I wrestle Tess out of the cart and drag everything out to the car (including a big thing of fleece that I didn't get a bag for), only to get there and realize that Tess is holding a spool of the clearance Christmas ribbon I had gotten.
My stomach drops. I'm pretty sure I didn't pay for it. I check the receipt. I didn't.
Dang @#$@#%@#@ it!!!
It cost less than a dollar. But I knew I had to go back in and either give it back or pay for it.
So I put everything in the car and dragged Tess back in. She was not happy. Neither was I.
I get back in line - fifth again! (What can I say? The ribbon was cute.) Tess freaks out. The old lady in front of me doesn't know how to use a smart phone, but insists that there's a coupon on there
somewhere. Tess starts pulling things off of the displays. Bah! I keep reminding myself that it's not the dollar amount that matters, it's the principle of the matter.
Finally -
finally - I get up front and have to explain to the cashier what happened. The previously over-friendly cashier gives me a
look, as if I tried to steal a sewing machine instead of accidentally taking a spool of ribbon - which I had come back to pay for, thank you very much. I don't want to, but of course we have to have a five minute conversation about it. I pay and we leave.
As we get in the car and drive to our next errand I can't help but think about the whole situation. I really didn't want to go back in and pay for that ribbon, not because of the cost, but because I knew I'd just feel so guilty if I didn't. Tess wouldn't have known what happened, so it's not like it would have been a learning moment for her. But it certainly was for me. I know I did the right thing, but I wish I had had a better attitude about it. I wish I hadn't stood there for a good 10 seconds, considering what I should do. I wish I hadn't gotten so annoyed with the old lady and her smart phone.
I wish I were just
naturally good all the time. But I'm not. I'm working on it, but it's hard. Oh well - perhaps the next time Tess dabbles in petty thievery I'll remember this experience and have a better attitude.